Someone help - extreme health anxiety

[Chloe99xox]

Hi there. I was wondering if anyone could help me. I'm going out of my mind with worry, I can't eat or sleep or enjoy life at all. I went to get some new moles checked that we're different colours and bothering me, the dermatologist checked my moles under a dermascope and said they're all fine and discharged me. I'm not believing her, I've been reading up stories that melanoma can only be confirmed via biopsy 😥 to make it worse, I have 1 raised lymph nodes in my neck. It's soft and moves around but I have no idea how long it's been there... I've been in and out of A & E, convinced myself that I might have lymphoma or melanoma that's gone undetected and spread 😭😭. I went to my GP who felt the node and has doing a full blood count test, but melanoma doesn't even show in the blood ? I'm having a hard time believing the dermatologist as why didn't she even take the moles out ? They are new, different colours and she said they were fine ? I can't focus or live, I keep thinking I'm just gonna die , I've read all tik tok stories of people with swollen lymph nodes with no infection and they've had lymphoma and that melanoma can spread to a node ,it doesn't help that the nearest lymph nodes is near the mole I don't like. Even if my blood comes back normal, I won't be able to calm down... I'm only 25 and it's robbing me of all joy as the internet people have swollen lymph nodes and dodgy moles that get missed.. I've been checked for infection ear and nose and nothing... Everyone says I'm health anxious but that doesn't mean I can't get ill....I just can't catch a break...my mind won't turn off it's there everyday..every hour

Have you been to see your GP about your anxiety? If the dermatologist has said the moles are okay, try not to google anything. They see hundreds of moles every day so they know what they are looking at. The GP will be able to help you with therapy and possibly some sort of medications so that you are not ruled by your anxiety x

You need to see a therapist who can help with health anxiety, OP, so that you can get your life back. You deserve to be happy.

The Dermatologist sees Melanomas everyday of their working life OP . You have not got Melanomas . This is your Health Anxiety and you need to put time and work into managaging it .

Dermatologists recognise melanomas visually, it's what they do everyday.
Please stop looking at Tiktok or any other sites and see your GP for therapy.

OP, the worst thing you can do is look for people to appease your anxiety. You’ll have plenty of well-meaning people telling you “I had X and it was nothing so you’ll be fine”, and they’ll do it for the right reasons, but it’s not going to help you.

I know it’s not easy, but the only thing that will help is seeking support through mental health services.

Are you able to contact any services today?

Seeking reassurance and not believing medical professionals is typical HA. Forget the moles, you need help with your mental health you have a anxiety disorder. HA is a dreadful chronic condition and you need help from your GP.

You've seen a GP, A&E doctors and a dermatologist.

You've had multiple physical examinations, visual exam of the moles, and now blood tests.

All so far have been negative.

You're awaiting the blood tests they done basically to appease you.

What will satisfy you? What will convince you all the medical expertise you've consulted and all the tests are correct? Or wrong?

There is nothing we can say. But you need help. And it's help for your MH, not your moles. Moles are normal on a perfectly healthy body.

The problem is I've got a raised lymph node in my neck. Just one, and it's near that new mole. I've read that raised lymph nodes can be spread cancer and only way to test is with CT scans and a biopsy and I feel like it's just sat in my body and I can't do anything and it's gonna get worse.😭 The lymph nodes is the bottom left of my neck it's soft and I think it moves...but you Google and it says that's good but then it says it's bad...and there's so many people who've had these horrible diseases and I feel like I'm just sat letting it get worse..what if the lymph nodes never go down then something happens to me and I can't be treated ? All I do is feel it.. I don't know why it's up but I don't ave an infection or cold... I had blood work done today which was clear I was hoping some infection would come back then it's explained

Lymph nodes can also be raised because of hayfever, a minor viral infection like a cold or even some prescription medicines.

It is VERY RARE that it's anything to do with a cancerous cause.

Mine are up on both sides at the moment and I look like a hamster - it's my appalling hayfever.

I just cannot switch off..all I do is feel it every day, the lymph node. What am I supposed to do go back to my GP and ask for it to be scanned ? I'm absolutely terrified and taken over, my mental health isn't even on my mind it's secondary since I feel like I have a physical problem. I wish someone could switch it off in my mind, I wish I never went digging for the lymph node.. ignorance truly is bliss...I have a new dog but I've had a dog all my life and I doubt it's to do with that as I'd be itching...

Your mental health is the reason you are feeling terrified and behaving like this.

Contact your GP to ask for help with the health anxiety.

Seek help, please.
Some of us really are dealing with cancer and its treatment unfortunately!!!