2 weeks ago tomorrow I had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I didn't know I was pregnant, I lost 2 litres of blood, had emergency surgery, they had to remove one of my tubes, I spent time in Icu, it was really serious and I thought I was going to die.
Now I can't stop fixating on everything and wondering if it's something serious? I have a pain in my calf and my left hip is really sore, it has been since the op. My calf pain is worse when walking and kind of feels like cramp, I was trying to garden today and I couldn't crouch down because of the pain in my leg, I had to keep it straight, it isn't swollen or hot though but it is sore if you touch it in a certain place. My hip feels like it got a wallop and feels really bruised but looks completely normal, it's been that way since I woke up from surgery. The pain in my calf has come and gone but I have been on painkillers because of the surgery so I don't know how much that has been dulling my calf pain, today is the first day I havent taken pain killers at all.
Now I'm convinced that I have a blood clot. I've spent most of the evening googling it like it a mad woman. I've never been like this. Until the pain was complete unbearable I was sure my stomach pain was just trapped wind or something and didn't go to the Dr until I almost passed out, even then I went to the GP first rather than a&e. I'm usually really relaxed and now I'm convinced I'm on my way out. I feel like I can't trust my judgement anymore, I was bleeding internally and thought it was probably just trapped wind. I don't know if I'm overreacting to this pain in my leg or underreacting to the pain? I feel like I don't know my own body anymore.