Do you think I'm having a mid-life meltdown?

[HappyDaysAreAhead]

I just felt the need to type this out.

For the last few years and increasingly so this year, I've just not felt my usual bubbly self.

I have also lost a relative and a close friend in the last year.

Life seems to have become so difficult since then.

Things that perhaps wouldn't have bothered me are now taking over my thoughts:

Emotionally:

Negative comments from family (Mainly my sibling)
Often tearful
Panic: Dental appointments (Peri menopause is wrecking my gums apparently)
Reminiscing about things I wish had been different
Thinking about ill health/old age
The health of my family
Every little twinge I get, I'm thinking it's serious illness
Just lost my spark really

Physically:
High Blood Pressure
Gum ache (under-estimated until you have it)
Worsening allergies
Aching joints
Eye Test: Starting of a cataract
Skin problems: Itching and lesions

I'm usually very bubbly but I can only summarise it as feeling "blah".

OP sorry you’re not feeling yourself.

do you mind me asking how old you are, and whether you are taking HRT? I ask these things because you mentioned per menopause, and because personally speaking, a lot of of what you describe was resolved almost overnight and miraculously with HRT.

I'm late 40's and not on HRT

All of your symptoms are low oestrogen have you discussed HRT the gum issues specifically , I feel your pain I had monthly gum pain linked to my hormones.

The low mood, the reflective nature is all normal for 40+ you begin to look back and wonder WTF.

But it’s all a phase for change and evolution, it’s hard but if you can reframe? I’ve made it to 48 without any therapy or medication but now I need all the things! CBT for health anxiety which has crept up on me and the CBT has been life changing and HRT for the hormones also helped, not life changing but helped.

I do think WTF daily!

Did your gum issues resolve when you started HRT?

I think I need to stop reading news articles too.

The news is making me feel worse and if it's health related news, I keep thinking it will happen to me and will I cope.

Perhaps I'm just generally over thinking and getting anxious?