Due to some trauma when young, I developed some sort of claustrophobia which impacted me by making me terrified of getting on planes and trains. 30 years later and I've managed to do some shorter flights with family and am better with trains (though much easier when I know routes or have people with me). I sometimes feel close to the bottom in life because I feel such shame that I can't do something that others find so easy, and I often think my children would be better off without me.
I guess i want some advice from others how to avoid panic in my next flight as I feel like im going to have months of anxiety before it. Ill be with family. My children are small and I don't want to put my fears on them but when I get on, it's like I block everything out to try and cope. I'm terrified. I take Kalms or Bach Flower Remedies. I've had some counselling and they have given me recordings to listen to.