Three and a half weeks ago I had a routine scan and it revealed that I had something that could be cancer. GP put me on the 2 week pathway to see a consultant and when I asked said it was between 10 and 50% likelihood that it was cancer. Consultant sent me for bloods and an MRI and then eventually got back to me today and gave me the all clear. I'm incredibly relieved.
In that three and a half week period I was basically an anxious wreck. Sobbing in my kitchen, crying in the car, unable to think idly about anything but the possible outcomes, barely eating (I've lost half a stone). My brain planned out how I would tell my boss about it, how I would tell the children, all these horrible things that thankfully I don't have to do. I was convinced that it was cancer and was preparing myself for it basically.
So now, I feel very weird. Is it normal to feel like this? I still feel really tearful, it's odd because I should be happy.