Trauma, acid reflux/lpr & depression
Gosh what a cheerful title. Well unfortunately here I am in an awful situation that I could never have dreamed of happening to me.
A year and a half ago in the summer of 2023 we got my daughter christened. I wasn’t keen on the idea for various reasons to do with the Catholic Church ethos however it’s what my other half wanted as his parents are Irish. At the end of the evening when the kids were in bed we ended up arguing about something pretty trivial. My OH grabbed me by the throat. Shocking I know. Since the night it happened I had severe throat pain, I gained a cough & my vocal cords felt bad. It was hard to read or sing for example. I had no external bruising. This went on and on & I had chest pains as well. I went to a&e several months after who checked me over & said it was fine. I lied about the incident saying it was a mugging. I’m too scared to tell anyone what has really happened. The throat & chest pain didn’t go away so I went to the GP without telling them the details and they said it was acid reflux. I ignored this thinking how could it be I’ve never had it before. Anyway cut a long story short I was referred to an ENT specialist had a camera down my throat who said I had severe acid reflux damage to my throat & prescribed me omeprazole for 6 months to heal the damage.
This was in April, and now I’m in a terrible way. My throat did heal but once I finished the omeprazole my stomach was awful and bubbling. Now my throat is back to being very hoarse. My throat gurgles at night a lot & in the day a bit too, I also have constant air coming up into my throat all day long. I’m terrified the incident has left me with damage to my throat which is causing all these issues, I told the ENT doctor I was grabbed by the throat in an incident with very few details & he said it wouldn’t cause acid reflux and this must be separate. It just seems so odd how it’s all just flowed from one to the other.
I’m in such a depressed state right now. My throat feels hoarse and tight. I’m terrified what damage is happening to my throat daily. Why have I got acid reflux/lpr/gerd whatever you call it for the first time in my life.
I have a good network of friends, two sisters & parents who I am all close to. But I haven’t told anyone what I’m going through for several reasons. I don’t want to worry them. But mainly because my OH I think is essentially a good person that did a really terrible thing. I don’t know if I can get over what he’s done & whether we can move forward but he has worked on himself a lot since the incident with therapy & I know it was totally out of character. He lost his sister to cancer a few years ago & im not sure he ever dealt with the grief properly so some of the anger may be related to that I don’t know.
I just know if I tell my family or my friends everything is shattered forever. However it already feels like that.
I just want to get better. I was fit and healthy before the incident and I’m terrified what is happening in my body. I’m going to ask the GP for antidepressants this week as I’m really struggling.
I guess I’m just putting this on here for a release and for some advice and support.
Why would I have this terrible acid reflux after this incident. Is my life ruined forever. I’m so lost right now.