CT scan of head.. anxiety

[Dixie29]

Background is i have very bad health anxiety starting from when I was around 15 and I'm in my 30s now (I've been on and off medication etc)

I went for an ENT consultation today as over a year ago I went to Specsavers and there was something wrong with my ear drum.
They did a hearing test and my right ear has some kind of hearing deficit. The consultant checked further in my ear and up my nose with a camera and everything was clear.
He then said he was referring me for a CT head scan to check the bones in my ear.

This is like my worst nightmare as I'm convinced they are going to find something sinister. He says they're not looking for anything like a tumour but I'm worried they'll find one anyway. I don't see how I can deal with the waiting and then afterwards for the results.

I know i need to pull myself together as people go through things much worse and no one is even concerned apart from me. I'm so anxious and have 3 kids and a job, no idea how I'm going to function normally. I've never really had anything like this before and usually avoid the doctors for this reason.

They are doing a check to help you keep well.
They think there is an issue with your hearing. This is something they help sort out.

So reframe this - it's good they are sorting this issue out.

And CT scans are fine. No pain. You do what you are told and it's over pretty quickly.

I have no advice but just to say I am exactly the same. I had a routine eye test this week and got myself into such a state, I was convinced they were going to find a brain tumour or that my optic nerve was inflamed which could mean I have MS. The optician looked at me as if I have 2 heads when I said I was nervous. It's exhausting isn't it.

I read something about how we need to change our thinking habits so imagine the best scenarios, in your case keep thinking about the consultant telling you everything is OK.

I'm the same with eye tests... I don't go to the opticians as they cause me too much anxiety. However 2 weeks ago I decided on the spur of the moment to book a test (it had been 8yrs). I was an absolute wreck, crying in the waiting area etc. I have no idea what the optometrist thought of me as I know it is so irrational!