PND

[tsarvo]

I have'nt been on here for a while, I (stuped me )thourght i was getting better.life is good compared to what it has been. I've got a part time job in the body shop( my idea of heaven) My little girl is lovely, on the go all the time just starting to walk. SO WHY DO I FEEL CRAP.
If any one is reading this just let me have a little winge, i might feel better.
My house is a building site.(we've been here nearly 5 years and i still dont have a kitchen,living room,dinning room or Second bedroom.)
Im sitting in a so called office with no plaster or ceiling.
I'm so broke it's untrue (yes i know everyone else is in the same boat.)
My husband is a sex mad obsesed beonde beleife.
I'm so tied i wish i could put my head in the ground, just for some quite time.

I've finshed now, sorry if you think i'm winging but i hope it might make me feal better.

hi tsarvo

a number of things came to mind reading your message...

• don't worry about whingeing - this site would be nothing without people sharing their experiences!
• are you ok physically? - it might be worth getting your iron levels checked, is your diet ok, do you get a reasonable amount of sleep (haha, easier said than done), boosting your vitamin intake etc., or would a general check up help?
• does your dh/p share the burden of childcare and household chores?
• have you been out for a b**y good night out and a laugh recently?
• is it worth going to see your gp to see what s/he can suggest for pnd (if you think that is at the root of it all)?

i expect you have already though of all the above.

sorry to hear you are having a miserable time. if all else fails by all means come to mumsnet and have a cathartic whinge!

all the best

when db was 3 months i stared panic attacks, hot and cold sweets and lots of tears. i went to the doctor and between him and the health visters and some pills i got a bit better, then i had a relapes when db was 8 months, just a small one so i uped the pills again, untill everthing carmed down. whith the new job i felt on top of the world so i stared to cut down the tablets, but now i can feel a slight panic coming on again and my sleep is getting bad again. i wake up and start thinking realy stupid things that have to be done or that i mussent forget to do. straight jacket city here i come.

hello again tsarvo

if you are feeling like that, it's time to go to the doctor if you haven't already. i'm sure you've already come to that conclusion yourself. life's too short to procrastinate on something like this, so go soon if you haven't already!

really hope you are feeling better soon.

all the best

hi tsvaro - you said you got better the last time on some pills - were you talking about antidepressants?
If you think you might be relapsine now is the time to see your doc again (URGENTLY - tell them it is urgent!!!) to see if you should maybe be on a higher dose again!
Poor you, I know what it feels like - I have tried a couple of times to come off my antidepressants and it hasn't worked - if you are still feeling depressed then you aren't quite better yet! I had PND with both mine (still taking the tablets second time around) and it is awful - you think everythin gis OK and you want to be able to cope, so you take it hard if you find you cant!
Please keep posting and let us know how you are. I think a doc's appointment at the first might be a good idea. There are a few of us on the Postnatal Depression - 2 thread so do come and join us !!!!
Take care love SusanXXX

Hi tsarvo. I've nothing much to add but if you keep waking up worryng about things you musn't forget, keep a pad & pencil beside your bed. I have bouts of waking up thinking if things but provided I write them down, I find I can go back to sleep and stop worrying about them as I know I won't forget.

Yes, go and chat with your doc. Say how you fet things were getting better etc and that you cut the tablets down. A friend did this too and her doctor was adamant that she should have continued, even though she felt better, so that her "happiness levels" would be stabilised.

And whinging is part of what mumsnet is for

Tsarvo,
I've been taking tablets for 10 months now and although I feel OK most of the time, there are still days when I just want to curl up in bed and cry and days when I'm ratty with everybody. My doctor says this is quite normal and shows that I am not ready to come off the tablets yet much as I would like to. From the outset, she said that it could easily take a year of medication to completely stabilise.
Having a whinge is wonderful though isn't it? Especially to other females ... my well-meaning dh always tries to come up with solutions - men just don't seem to understand that a sympathetic ear is sometimes all that is needed!