I had a gastroscopy today, with sedation, and it was absolute torture. I felt like I was being force fed lego bricks, I was crying, retching, trying to remove the tube. They had to stop in the end, I need to go back and have it done under general anaesthetic. I keep crying at the memory of it, I actually feel traumatised. And yet, looking back at old threads on here, everyone seems to say it's fine with sedation.
I literally scream and cry every time I have a smear test or any other gynae procedure. I feel like my insides are being ripped apart. More than one nurse has asked if I've had past trauma (I haven't) or if sex is painful (it isn't).
As a cancer patient I have a lot of injections, blood tests and canulas. I usually shed a few tears as the needle goes in.
I could give plenty more examples. I'm not a dramatic person. I hate to cause a fuss and am mortified by my reactions. I use mindfulness techniques and usually start off feeling calm. But these things hurt me so bloody much.
Does anyone else have such a pathetic pain threshold? Does anyone know why, or if I can do anything to change it?