Am I going mad?

[Kimi]

So I had a small op last week and have been home a few days and taking pain killers co-codamol and Tramadol. I have cut them down day by day as they made me very sleepy.
I am still sore and bruised but what is worrying me is I seem to be losing my mind.
I took no pills yesterday but slept all day and then had a really bad night with odd dreams and waking up in a panic, I woke up this morning in what I can only call a blind panic and felt the whole world is crashing in on me.

I think some of it has to do with the landlords thinking of selling the house so we will have to move, I hate moving and I hate the unknown and everything in my life is a bit odd at the moment.

However I really do feel odd and just want to hide away and pretend the world around me is not there, also everything smells feels more intense. I feel like I should be doing loads of stuff but I don't know what and I want to cry...

Am I losing the plot?

did you have a general anaesthetic? The effects of this can apparently take a few days to work out of your system

co-codamol and tramadol can make you very sleepy/sick and weird ...

and it own't help that there is some uncertainty around your house etc

have a good cry - let it all out and hopefull that will start to make you feel better

Thank you RS Yes I had a general anaesthetic was in surgery 2 hours.

Just feeling really really weird and can't seem to get a grip on my train of thought either.

i am sure you get a "come down" with an anaesthetic

have you got the energy for a walk outside?

fresh air is good for the soul

You have been under drastic physical and mental stress (general anaesthetics are a pretty radical physical event no matter what your operation actually was) so it's no wonder you are feeling a bit strange. Be kind and gentle to yourself - is there someone around to look after you and pamper you a bit?

Would love to get out but have to wait in today as landlord is sending 3 agents round to value the house

Would love to get out but have to wait in today as landlord is sending 3 agents round to value the house

I think you may be suffering from anxiety, Its probably a climax of your anxiety over the operation and the worry of having to find a new home, topped off with the medication making you feel weird.

Dont worry Kimi, I fel like this all the time- you just get ued 2 it and carry on as b4

madamez, I have been pampered to death In fact I have never been treated so precious in my whole life.
I have been cooked for and brought lovely flowers had visitors (although i was a bit groggy) and waited on hand and foot, I feel such a fraud as I only had my gallbladder removed.
I have had home made soup and fresh organic fruit and veg with every lovely meal and today is the first time I have got out of bed.

DS1 is home with me today and DP had to go to an expo at docklands, my mum has DS2 so I have peace and not much to do.

18 years ago (when I was a student nurse) this surgery was major as they didn't do keyhole. Patients were in hospital for at least a week. Things are done differently now but the effects are still the same on the body and mind.

Look after yourself. The anaesthetic along with pain relief and the stress you felt before the surgery will be contributing to what you are feeling.

It's good that you are addressing what you are feeling. Give yourself a break and time to get over your surgery. Don't compare yourself to anyone else. We are all different.

I had a minor op three weeks ago tomorrow (tear duct thing, ok, they broke my nose, but I was only out for an hour), and I'm still not really 100%. I've not had anxiety exactly, but I've been low energy, just very tired. (Not helped that the incision got a bit infected, I've just come off the antibs today.)

Thing is, you've been, effectively, assaulted. And your body knows this, and so does your mind, on some level. Take it easy.

Had another sleepless night, so now I am in pain and snapping at everyone.
Half the time nothing I think or say makes sense and its like I hear someone say it the relise it was me. I feel in slow motion.
And I am putting everyone out, so I feel guilty.

And none of my clothes fit I am wearing my sodding gym track suit.

Got up to check emails and sneezed and oh god it hurts.
Going back to bed to wallow in self pity.
DS2 who is 7 did the hoovering today [bless]

Take your meds, take painkillers to help you sleep. It's worth it for a good sleep. Take cocodomol (you can get it OTC, well, from behind the counter, anyway), unless codeine doesn't agree with you.

Sleep will improve your mood and get you healing faster.

It is perfectly understandable that you are out of sorts, don't feel guilty, just take some time.

Is the pain getting worse? If so, I would suggest ringing your GP as you could have a subphrenic abscess which can happen after gall bladder surgery.

Hello, Went back to the Dr yesterday as was in pain, hot and shivering, He just upped the pain killers .

Have been in bed most of the time and feeling a useless mum as only took the DCs out twice this whole half term

Still feel really really sad and down and panicky and don't know what to do, first thing in the morning i the worst, I am dreading having to do the school run again next week.

Everyone has been so lovely to me to I have loads of cards and flowers and my great Aunt sent me £20 (to get something to cheer me up) in a card and flowers as well (bless her heart).
My mum and sister came and helped with my children, DP took two and a half days off work and worshiped me and DH1 brought me flowers and yummy treats, DS2 friends mum has taken him out and had him to play.

So why when I have so much love and support do I feel SO low?

Also the bruising around my tummy button is sore and feels as if my skin is on fire and being ripped open.