and its breaking my heart. I love my nan so so much. we are incredibly close. talk every day on the phone at least once a day. nans not been well for a while. I did have another thread on here about it all but i cant find it to add this to it, so sorry. anyway, she started with a chest infection a few months ago, and a different doctor came out to see her and referred her for chest xrays and blood tests. Cue a few weeks of tests etc, and then doc wants her to go for a ct scan and a camera down her throat and up the other end. nan very tired and being sick and having diarrhoea all the time by now. Anyway, my nans been very confused about everything and i rang the doctor a couple of weeks ago to have a word with her about it all. nan had given permission for the doc to speak to me. She told me what was going on and said that they wanted to rule out leukaemia and/or internal bleeding. Anyway, my nan went for the CT scan last week. Yesterday afternoon i had a phone call from the doctor saying that my nan has lymphoma. She was going round to tell nan after she had spoken to me but wanted to know if me or someone else could be there when she told her. I live 2 hours drive away so I rang my aunty to be there. My nan is devastated. As am I. I don't know what to do. The dc said the next thing to do is an urgent biospy on her lymph gland/node?? to find out what kind of lymphoma it is. I am scared out of my mind. So is nan. I've looked on the NHS wesbite and I can't make sense of anything. All I know is its when the lymphocytes in the blood turn cancerous. I rang nan this morning and we couldn't talk properly for both of us crying. I don't want to lose her, but shes getting so frail and lost so much weight she's quite weak. I'm not sure she would cope with chemo if she has to have it. Oh god I feel so sick. I've not slept all night. Neither has nan. I'm going to go see her at the weekend. I want to be there NOW though not that I can do anything I suppose.