When will I feel better (pity post)

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I've recently been admitted to a hospital with a kidney stone, it came on so suddenly with no warning, I didn't know what it was at first, I was completely fine then bam.
The pain, the vomiting then I collapsed.
Taken to A&E, I genuinely thought I was dying.
Morphine, diazepam, paracetamol IV drips & suppositories for pain relief, inc IV drips for fluids.
Horrendous experience, the Urologist was going to operate to put a stent in as they said I was in danger of having a rupture.
I eventually passed the stone.
I was discharged with several prescriptions and told to take it easy, no lifting etc and I should feel better in a couple of days.
Both arms and one hand are bruised and swollen from the cannulas.
It's been three days now but I just don't feel better, I'm nauseous (have tablets for this) and I feel generally unwell, just not myself.
I also feel shellshocked, I don't want to sound dramatic but it almost feels like I'm suffering from some sort of PTSD (I know I'm not) but I can't seem to get over how suddenly it came on, the pain, how absolutely horrific it was, the feeling that I was actually dying, I'm struggling to sleep.
I'm just looking for some solidarity, some stories that it's not just me.
I mean, it was only a kidney stone, can anyone relate and help me feel not so pathetic?
IRL I'm as tough as old boots but this has knocked me for six.

Hi. My husband had one last year and similar to you, it came out of nowhere with agonising pain. He was screaming with it. It was really traumatic for him and he was in shock for ages. It will get better though. Did they leave a temporary stent in? Once that was out, he felt much better emotionally and physically. He drinks so much water now in fear of it happening again.

Kidney stones are one of the most painful things that can happen to a human being.

It's never 'only' a kidney stone. Just because they are treatable doesn't mean you didn't have a horrific experience.

It’s one if the most painful things I’ve ever had. I felt better after a fortnight, although I had a stent in for ten days which did cause some pain during that time. I assume it would have been better in a few days otherwise. I had really strong pain relief (Tremadol) which I seemed to recall doesn’t exactly remove the pain, just stops you caring about it. Ten years ago now but still remember it like yesterday!

Thank you all for your replies, it really does help to know it's not just me.
The screaming in pain I can totally relate to, I was on the floor screaming that I was dying 🙄
I didn't have a stent fitted in the end but I have to go back for a follow up appointment.
It felt like "only" a kidney stone as it wasn't like I was having a heart attack or something really serious, when I passed the stone it was pathetically small but caused so much trouble.
Thanks so much for sharing your stories ❤️

I had a 5mm kidney stone years ago and it was the most horrendous thing ever. I went from being fine, to being in absolute agony rolling around on the bed trying to get comfortable. Dr's thought it was a kidney infection, but 2 hours later I was calling for an ambulance, hospital thought it was a kidney infection, it wasn't ! A few days later that I saw a Dr again and he referred me back to a&e for a ct scan that revealed the stone, hospital wouldn't admit me because it wasn't 6mm! So I had to wait another week for urology appointment and sent away with morphine. I really feel for you and understand how awful that experience was.

It sounds absolutely terrible, OP. Don't belittle yourself and your trauma. The thing about trauma is that we're all different and react to things differently. You may be tough and resilient in other ways which someone else may find more difficult. And you may be more sensitive to things that others might have more resilience to.

We all have different brains and life experiences. Your experience was traumatic to you. It is real trauma and affected you badly. Be kind to yourself.

I have been the victim of two incidences of armed robbery (South African) and it didn't give me as much trauma as an accident I had, I had second degree burns from a boiling water bottle accident a few years ago and it took me a long time to feel normal again, the whole experience, the pain, the hospital, the weeks of aftercare, were terrible. Just because it's not as bad as a heart attack or something more serious, doesn't mean it wasn't a very hard, stressful, and traumatic experience.

I hope you feel better very soon.

Kidney stones are awful things to have it certainly sounds like you went through the mill maybe talk to your GP he might suggest counselling just to get you over the PTSD

Are you on antibiotics? They can cause terrible nausea. Hope you feel better soon

@GG1986
That does sound horrific, I hope you're fully recovered.
Your experience is terrible, I was lucky that they took me seriously, worked out the correct diagnosis and treated me ❤️

@ButternutSoup
Thank you for your thought provoking reply, you are very kind ❤️

@charlieinthehaystack
Thank you I will speak to my GP if I don't start recovering ❤️

@unbelievablescenes
No antibiotics, I just feel constantly nauseous but I have tablets to counteract the nausea ❤️