Sorry in advanced if some of this is tmi (I promise this is a genuine health concern of mine) but I’m getting myself in such an anxious state over my gut health that I no longer know what to do anymore.
My issues are daily, ongoing and wearing me down.
I have a bad tummy and weird stools most days. Have to go the moment I wake up. Loose but not fully diarrhoea (although that can sometimes strike at any time, out of the blue) but it’s kind of mud/peanut butter/toothpaste-like. Sometimes, like this morning I have to get to the loo quick yet other times I can sit there for ages trying to squeeze out this toothpaste poop it leaves me with a feeling of incomplete emptying.
I have such a horrible gut. I have suffered from IBS for 26 years and it is just getting worse. I no longer know what I can eat, I am scared to eat if I’m honest. I stick to low fodmap eating, I don’t eat any dairy and I only drink water but nothing helps. I even went gf for a year and saw no real difference in my symptoms.
I have tried all the medications recommended, Imodium just holds everything back (and often just constipates me) and the moment I stop taking it the floodgates open. Mebeverine or peppermint oil never help either. Probiotics make me worse. PPI’s make things worse (give me diarrhoea) and amitriptyline/nortriptyline left me feeling like a zombie.
Gut directed hypnotherapy is lovely but does nothing to help (I do listen every day though as it helps me to sleep). I walk my dog every day so get plenty of gentle exercise.
I also suffer from daily upper issues and experience lots of nausea, burping and gas. Literally, the whole of my digestive tract seems affected. I have had all the tests/procedures (2 colonoscopies, a gastroscope, biopsies for h pylori, coeliac disease etc), a bile acid scan and various stool tests all via my gastroenterologist and because these all come back as normal I feel she has just given up on me, she really doesn’t want to know anymore despite my issues getting worse. She basically implies that it’s all in my head (I have a telephone consultation with her tomorrow but I don’t hold up much hope of any help form her).
I can’t function properly, especially in the mornings and am often scared to leave the house because my symptoms are becoming increasingly unpredictable (I no longer enjoy a social life, I just endure my part time job for fear of having an accident and then come home). I am lucky that I only work part time but I am going to have to give up my job soon as I can not predict when my tummy will get upset. I have no idea how I am going to bring any money in without working. This is a constant source of stress which is obviously not helping. It affects my relationship with my dh and dc and my friends as I no longer want to go anywhere as my guts dominate everything.
I feel constantly exhausted and washed out. I also have constant pelvic discomfort from endometriosis and adenomyosis but it’ll be a full year before I get any surgery due to long waiting NHS waiting times. I feel a complete mess.
Can anyone offer up any advice, something I may not have thought of that could possibly help me? I am going crazy.