Kind of embarrassed to post this but when I was younger I didn't take care of my hair and I suffer from traction alopecia. It's very bad and all the hair on my right side of my head is missing. I can't wear my own hair out because of this I have to wear wigs and always had to since I was 16. I hate wearing wigs, I find it embarrassing and feel self conscious and feel like everyone knows, I try to not let it get to me but I hate it. I really want to wear my own hair out as wearing wigs means I always have to wear the hair down and I hate how much effort this takes to make it look nice as it means I can never just tie my hair up and go. It's also affected things like taking my kids swimming because I'm worried about it getting wet. I cant afford a hair transplant that's completely out of the question I simply don't have that kind of money. Is there anything else I can do? Anything at all I can take? It's not grown back in almost 20 years so I believe it never will? Or any way I can wear my hair out without it showing? I have tried in the past but people kept asking me what happened even though I thought I had disguised it well enough so I stopped doing that. I'm really at a loss as I hate wearing wigs they are uncomfortable and I'm self conscious wearing them and they are not cheap either. Also never came across anyone irl with this condition.