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[normallysostrong]

I feel like if i could just go to sleep and not wake up that would make everything better.

Why?

I have no financial problems no relationship problems. i have a great family, wonderful kids.

I've always been strong, the one others get strength from.

I live with a disability that gives continual pain but I manage it. We had an upheaval at home last year but our strong unit got through it. I had an accident in January that I may not have survived - but I did and I feel I've coped with that so I should be counting all my blessings.

I act like I'm strong but just lately the continual worry, yes the sheer worry of everything is just gradually knocking me into the ground.

I'm the glass half full person where everything will work out in the end. I've no cause for complaint so why do I feel like I've reached the end of the line.

I feel that to go to sleep permanently would put a stop to the stressful feelings but would never do it as I'm the strong one and the devastation to others would be too much.

But why am I even feeling like this?

Namechange for obvious reasons.

You are exhausted with being strong and need to take some time off coping?

We all need some downtime when we just say "f* it - i just won't cope anymore - at least for a while"

But hopefully venting on here may give you some mental downtime and you'll feel better again in the future

It takes such a lot of emotional energy and resilience to always stay strong and to be the strong one.

You have to give yourself a break, or your body and mind will reach a point of crisis, and you will have no control over what happens.

It's OK to say "I can't do this any more." Let someone else cope for a while.

Thank you for replying.

My rational 'normal' mind says of course you are both right.

My stressed head is saying that we all have to just get on and cope - which adds to the mounting pressure of course.

I'm clinging on to when the kids are back at school when after school runs etc. I can retreat to my bed if necessary and just hibernate and do zilch if I want.

Putting on a normal face for the dcs and entertaining them during holidays when it's the last thing you feel like doing is just adding to the strain so when this Easter break is over I think I will probably 'collapse' privately.

Thank you again.

School holidays are hard enough - let alone when feeling terrible. Good for you for keeping going...