I had my head CT today. I was quite distressed beforehand and I had to deep breathe to stop shaking so much from anxiety. They took a couple of pictures of my brain without contrast and then one with contrast.
The technicians/radiographers were very kind and offered me water and blankets beforehand because I was so shaky. I made the mistake of reading my handover note from the neurologist which described me as "very anxious" (true) but also said CT was needed due to "suspected event." I have had papilloedema for two years related to idiopathic intracranial hypertension (IIH) but recently it has got worse, hence why I was sent for CT. My neurologist says that he is fairly certain that my veins/sinuses are playing up (not necessarily a big deal). I asked if there was any suspicion of a tumour and he said no - but then I am horribly anxious and he probably didn't want to make me freak out.
After the CT, the technician/radiographer took my port out which I thought was a good sign. She also said not to worry- that these scans are essentially due to my doctor doing due diligence. She seemed quite happy to chat with us and the atmosphere was calm, although I'm aware they are professionals and can't show any signs of concern. She said it would be a 1-3 weeks before I heard back from the neuro. I would like to think (perhaps wrongly) that if anything alarming showed up on the scan, there would be immediate follow-up - but this is the NHS, so who knows.
Obviously I have to wait to hear back from the doctor, which is hard. I'm not sure how to feel. I thought I seemed safe after the scan but I'm scared that I'll get too relaxed and then get the "surprise! You've got a tumour!" call. My anxiety and general distress is unbelievably bad (resistant to basically all treatment) and I was in tears all day and even after the scan. I felt like I was going to be sick in the waiting room. I was also the youngest person there (25), which added to my sense of dread. I've had some symptoms I guess are worrying - my memory is worse and I have brain fog (although I am on amitriptyline, a strong SNRI, propranolol and Diamox, so could be med-related). I get frequent but mild headaches. Some nausea. The last few months have been hell waiting for the scan. I know I sound ridiculous but I have been so scared.