It's taken me a long time to get to this point. I find out on Thursday. I've had symptoms which have gotten worse over the year. At first they believed it was piles issues but things progressed and after some samples and 'fit' tests I will now be getting operated on this Thursday, apparently I'll know where I stand with everything then.
Im not too sure why I'm writing this post. I guess it's just like a journal. I'm so sorry if anyone has trauma from this subject and I'm triggering anyone.
I have children, so I feel like even know it's silly assuming the worst and that I should wait and see, I can't quite get it out of my head. Would I tell them? Would I not? Why can't I think clearly and just blank it out of my head until I know