Hi everyone,
Looking for a hand hold and some advice as I'm sitting here on NYE alone in tears.
Basically have been through the mill this year mental and physical healthwise. Just a non-stop slog of issues that seem to have mostly resolved now, or managed. I have one more referral in January for what is suspected to be a breast cyst, and then I was hoping to finally get a long-awaited holiday in the sun. Except...
Two days ago, I suddenly felt very sick a couple of hours after lunch. Felt queasy and horrible and eventually vomited. I thought I'd feel better afterwards, that maybe lunch hadn't agreed with me (it was a bit sickly and I was stressed when eating it) but I kept vomiting for 4-5 hours. It was absolutely grim, couldn't keep anything down, vomiting up water, bile, etc. It eventually stopped around 9pm, and I was able to go to bed at 10pm and get a solid 10 hours' sleep. Woke up feeling very rough, obviously, weak, dizzy and headachey. Spent the day sipping water and eating dry crackers, woke up yesterday feeling quite a bit better but still very weak.
I was sitting on my laptop yesterday with both feet up on my computer chair (I know! Terrible for posture and will never do it again!) as I usually do, and I noticed that my left foot kept getting very numb, much more than usual. When I noticed, I put it on the floor, then subconsciously lifted it up again, and so on. Thought nothing of it, just assumed I was dehydrated and that was why. I went to bed and noticed that the top of my left foot was still numb and then started to panic and spiral a bit, googled some really terrifying things, and worried a lot. It felt the same in the morning when I woke up, but when I sat at my desk (with my feet on the floor!) I felt like a pulsing in my foot and pins and needles, as if circulation was returning, and I thought the numbness had improved a bit. However, it did feel weak, and I had trouble balancing on that foot and when I took the bin out, I had trouble walking. I could walk, but it felt strange, as if I consciously had to pick the foot up or something. Tried to think positive, and did some housework, and it seemed to be continuously getting better, but then sat down for an hour and it seemed to get worse again. Obviously now I'm totally focused on it and can't think of anything else, which isn't helping. Right now, when I poke at the top of the left foot with my nails, I can feel everywhere, so there's no actually completely numb area, but when I rub the top of my left foot with the heel of my right foot, it all feels a bit numb, if that makes sense? Doesn't feel normal, like when I rub my right foot with the heel of the left.
I still haven't eaten much at all - on flat Coke with ice, pints of water, crackers and bananas today, so haven't had a full meal since Thursday lunchtime when it all started. Planning to have some dry rice for dinner. Every other symptom I had yesterday is much, much better today, as I keep hydrating and having sugar, but now I have the foot thing!
I'm not in a great place mentally right now, not sure I can deal with any A&E (or if it would even justify going), and I'm wondering if there might be any chance that it's some minor thing, like dehydration combined with sitting in an awkward position too long, or if it's likely to be something terrible? I'm spiralling badly, as through everything I've experienced this year, the one thing that got me through it was walking, long walks around my area, hikes in the countryside, coastal walks, and the thought of not being able to walk has sent me into a terrible spiral.