Merry Christmas! Sorry for long post
I had my first baby almost 3 months ago. Here’s a bit of background:
30 yo
Vaginal delivery with a 2nd degree tear
Lost 1.7 L of blood
Hb 9 after delivery
Breastfed baby for a month, now just occasionally (he’s bottle feeding)
Blood test a few days ago says Hb back to range so no anemia
Was checked by a couple of GPS, just simple things like blood pressure, heart rate, Oxygen, all OK and all say heart and lungs sound fine too
I feel awful and NHS does not listen to me. They send me home and say it’s just anxiety and general tiredness.
I cry a lot because I want to enjoy my baby and I can’t because I am feeling unwell physically and mentally. It’s all being traumatic for me and I’m struggling
I feel palpitations very often throughout the day. It’s like my heart is out of synch. I was slightly anemic during pregnancy and I feel very similar just now but I DONT have anemia. Lots of palpitations, heart racing with minimal activity, shortness of breath, tightness in my chest.
I am worried about my heart cause I read heart can suffer damage postpartum. I mean, look at me crying and posting about it on Christmas Day. I feel like an awful mother for not being able to care for my baby as I would want to. I feel selfish for wanting to look after myself rather than my baby boy.
Has anyone been through something similar?
I just want some reassurance while I wait for an ultrasound appointment to check my heart on Jan 3. I had to go private cause NHS won’t take me seriously. Cardiologist wants to rule out damage to heart postpartum.
I just need to know that my heart is fine to calm my anxiety. It’s a vicious cycle. I hate it