What kind of eating disorder is this?

[HowNice23]

I struggle to eat at home, especially meals I have made myself. In particular if rushed for time or stressed food is like cotton wool in my mouth. It's like a almost permanent lack of appetite. I literally just pick e.g. two or three chunks of chicken from a casserole and a few bites of rice.

Weirdly I manage to empty a full plate and etc have a pudding or starter if I go out for a lunch or dinner so I don't think it's physical more I'm lacking the cues to do it when on my own.

I don't give a stuff about my weight so it's not linked to that. Just wondering what's going on as I can get very exhausted after a few days which exacerbates the problem and then I have to force something down and it's really not healthy.

I’m like this. I buy myself really nice ready meals. From Waitrose, m and s, cook etc. works out same price as cooking every night for me.

I also had disordered eating when I subconsciously felt like I wasn’t in control of my life. I controlled my eating, but I didn’t actively want to. Lost my appoeotie and couldn’t eat much at all. It got better the more in control I became .

It’s actually a key defence mechanism- to vomit under stress, it frees up your body’s energy and focus to fight of flee, digestion takes energy!