Advice on a touchy subject.

[crapolo]

Today i found out i was pregnant(5 weeks ish) I desperately don't want to be, keep hoping it is a dream and that the test was faulty.
I have 3 kids (4.5, 3 and 8 months) Decided no more Dh was to have snip. We hadn't had sex since ds was born i was too scared to get pregnant, but we did two and a half weeks ago was careful
I only took the test as i was late and thought the stress was making me later IYSWIM. still didn't expect it tho.
I really can't have another suffered/suffering still from depression on lithuim as well as anti depressants. Just got accepted to start college, felt like i was getting my life back.
I phoned the drs to get an appt and the first i could get is the 26th! I feel sick and scared i need to deal with this asap. I need to be strong for my other kids. Should i get an emergency appt? Once i see my doctor what happens how long does is take to get things done?
I understand this is a sensitive subject and i'm sorry, but i need to talk to someone as i can't in real life.

Another option is have the baby and have it adopted if you can't cope with 4.

crapolo, so sorry you are going through this. It seems that you and DH have come to a decision, that to me sounds like the right one for your family. After all there are three other people to consider here too. No one on here should/would judge you on this. I think you are being very very brave and selfless making this decision. I wish you peace.

Oh you poor love, I've just read OP. But I can relate, I suffered from terrible PND after having my 3rd. I hope everything works out ok for you. (hugs)

You don't sound convinced?? and this is a decision you are going to always have to live with so you need to be sure (well as sure as you can ever be).

I'm not advocating one way or another because only you know what you can manage or what you want. However, don't forget the older three will grow up in a couple of years and it'll be a lot easier. Is there no one who could help you if you went ahead (i.e. your mum?)