Twice this year, months apart, I've fallen unconscious from sitting after experiencing a strange sensation in my brain. I'm 45 and this is new for me.
It's hard to explain, but the sensation beforehand is like a wave of jumbled fragments of familiar scenes/memories/dreams intruding into my brain. I try to make sense of these thoughts but I can't. The whole sensation is deeply unsettling, disorientating and makes me feel sick. The sensation has also happened a handful of times without losing consciousness.
Both the times I've blacked out, I've injured myself on impact. I'm not losing continence, and I seem to be out for no more than a minute or so, and coherent quite quickly on coming round. With the latest, DP recalls hearing a groan and then a crash from elsewhere in the house. (I don't remember groaning - I don't actually feel an "Oh, I'm going to pass out" feeling; I seem to just switch off.)
I've had a "reassuring" MRI and echocardiogram. I'm awaiting EEG results (although done months in between the blacking-out episodes). All ECGs and other tests have been fine. A neurologist my GP referred me to said in the summer that if it happens again (which it now has), he'll treat it as epilepsy. But why this now, at 45?! I looked online and 40-50 is about the least likely age to develop epilepsy. Early in the year, before having passed out, I chalked the occasional weird brain sensation up to peri-menopause, which has hit me this year. I started HRT in February. Apparently, perimenopause/HRT can make existing epilepsy worse, but there isn't evidence to suggest they can cause it to actually start (but there isn't much research).
Meanwhile, I worry it'll happen again and my young DD will have to deal with the fall-out, or I'll be on my own and hit my head (I've been so lucky DP has been home both times - he works outside the home). I worry about crossing the road doing the school run, cooking, walking past the corners/edges of worktops and furniture - so many normal everyday things now seem potentially dangerous. I've stopped having baths (which I love), no longer go swimming (which I love), can't do any DIY up on a step or ladder (we have so much to do!), etc. - all advised after the first episode. And I've surrendered my driving licence, and it will be at least another year before I can drive again (as long as I don't pass out again in that time). I live rurally and work from home, so it's so, so isolating, not just for me but DD too (although I'm grateful I can at least still work); I feel like my world - our world - is shrinking and life is on hold.
I need light at the end of the tunnel. Any ideas? Any similar experiences and it got sorted and life got better? I'm seeing the neurologist again soon because it's now happened again - what must I be sure to mention/ask/be aware of to get the most out of the appointment?
Thank you.