Health anxiety keeping me awake

[Sylver75]

I have felt horrendous the last couple of days so took myself to the GP who sent me to get a chest x-ray. Doctor in hospital decided a CT would be better and turns out I have scarring on my lungs from having had Covid. No treatment or cure. Oxygen in my blood is 97% which is good but I'm still freaking out.

I had extremely mild dose of Covid, tickly cough for a day and then a runny nose. I developed a persistent tickly cough in the weeks after infection, hence the GP visit plus over the weekend, I felt very unwell, woozy and quite faint. Was worried I was having a cardiac event or some kind of stroke.

I'm meant to go to a music performance this weekend and a flight to Scotland in November, now I'm struggling because of the fear of getting Covid again and maybe doing more damage if I got more scarring. Not even logical as I got it in September without having been anywhere apart from work and I was the only person I know to even get it so no idea where I picked it up. I know I can't live in a bubble.

I kinda wish now I'd never had the CT scan as I'd have been blissfully unaware of there being an issue.

How do I stop freaking out in the wee hours of the morning and lying here unable to sleep?

If you are still feeling poorly, and the dr thought it bad enough to justify a ct scan, then you should probably be focusing on rest, keeping warm and giving your body time to recover, rather than going anywhere.
You aren't a machine, give yourself a chance to heal.
As for long term worrying, concentrate on the basics, good diet, plenty of fruit & veg, and gentle exercise to improve fitness and lung capacity. Look after yourself.