I dont want to post on the drinking thread in case im out of line.
My mum drinks to excess. I used to ring her at night, now I dont. She is always, always pissed and slurring badly when I speak to her. If I ever try to talk to her about anything, she does not remember a word ive said the next morning.
At night, she sits and swigs brandy out of a bottle, she doesn't even bother with a glass these days. She has back problems and can hardly walk at times. She's overweight and looks ill. She has diabetes and still wont stop.
I remember one day vividly, I popped round on my way to the shop, my friend was with me. Mum tried to get up and fell headfirst into the sofa, she couldn't get up. It would have been comical..almost. I cried all the way home. I was embarrassed and angry with her
I am selfish I know, because my mum really is all I have. I have a wonderful aunt but she has retired and lives abroad most of the year. She despairs of my mum. I dont see my dad much (about twice a year), he is a compulsive liar who doesn't give a shit.
Its like a time bomb. Im always on edge, wondering just how soon i'll lose my mum. I worry about her constantly. I've begged her to get help but she wont. She said AA was full of drug addict losers who frightened her and she didn't attend after her 3rd visit.
I am watching her slowly killing herself and nothing I say or do makes a difference.
She says she drinks because she's unhappy, she is nearing 60 and works full time to keep her ex drunk of a husband, who used to beat her. She says that because she knows im lonely that makes her unhappy too and so she drinks.
I cant help her. She wont go to the gp, she wont get help. I have to watch it.
How do I deal with this?