I'm just so zapped of energy, all the time.
I just can't get any motivation to do anything, other than the things I 'have' to do.
I have two young kids, 1 and 3 years old. I have a nanny helping me look after them while I 'work' from home. I've only recently gone back to work and I'm taking it very easy at the moment. So I'm only doing a couple of meetings a day. I don't think it's work stress yet.
I do exercise as much as I can. But I'm still constantly feeling tired, stressed, guilty and overwhelmed.
I just feel pretty shit about everything. I thought when I get a nanny and go back to work, I would feel better as it's not as exhausting as looking after my kids all day. Although my older one does go to nursery.
I can't put my finger on it, but I just feel bad that I'm not looking after them as much, I guess. Especially the younger one. As I always looked after him before.
But when I do spend time with them, I'm still overwhelmed and tired and not really able to give them as much as I would like.
My husband is fed up. He says I'm just like a zombie.
I'm just sick of cleaning and tidying up all the time. I'm sick of the same routine. I feel so stuck and suffocated by everything.
Are these normal feelings or could I be depressed ? I also suffer from MS, so I always wonder if my fatigue is linked to that or if I'm just tired and lazy.