I'm a bit of a mess right now as my mum died on Tuesday. I was with her for the whole 5 days she took to pass, which meant I've neglected myself and got dehydrated a few times. I now have a really painful bladder infection, which combined with some ibs pains has pinned me down at a solid 7/10 at its worst.
Chances are they'll send me to an out of hours gp service, but I won't be able to go out of my area. Even leaving the house today is going to be a huge mountain to climb as grief has hit me like a ten ton truck this morning.
I'm not even sure what I'm asking here. I've taken painkillers which take the edge off the pain and have a hot water bottle. I just want the physical pain to go so I can start to deal with grief pain.
It's not the burning pain you get with a UTI, but solid bladder cramping.
Fuck, I'm a mess.