Does anyone else struggle with this and have you developed any ways to deal with it?
As a young adult, both my parents had significant health problems and some of my early memories (aged from 11 onwards) are of hospitals, scary diagnoses etc. As an adult I've been in Resus with my dad just after he'd been revived after a cardiac arrest, my mum died not long after in the same hospital and I guess that's the root because anything hospital/GP related just sends me into this weird tailspin.
I don't have any other kind of anxiety and weirdly I really enjoy watching medical programmes/dramas and even weirder, while at Uni I nearly switched my course to do a foundation year so that I could start medicine.
Good job I didn't!
The problem is particularly focused around blood pressure. If I take it at home, I get anxious and worked up and that gives me a high reading. After a few attempts the other day it was obviously high so I went to the GP. I had to wait 20 mins for the appointment and by the time my name was called I was almost hyper ventilating. BP reading was off the charts (like 210/100) and my heart rate was 100. Heart rate is normally 55-60. GP gave me a minute to calm down and on second reading it went down a bit but he said that even factoring in my panicky state, it was still too high so he prescribed meds. He was very nice and said to me 'why does this upset you?' I said I honestly didn't know but the minute I walk into a surgery it's like I get hit with adrenaline and stress.
I've bought a home monitor and will
take it again in a week when the meds have had chance to kick in but I've been thinking a lot about white coat syndrome (which I clearly have). It feels so completely ridiculous to get SO anxious about such a small thing but then I know that any form of anxiety often is illogical. That doesn't make it any easier though!
So just wondering if anyone has successfully dealt with this and what methods you used to get through it? I have to go back for a blood test next week and already the thought of sitting in the waiting room is making me feel 'urgh'.