After long struggles with ibd and hemorrhoids and rectal bleeding
I have for years fought to be reffered for investigation and fobbed off
It's got worse over this year and after several bad idb flare ups I have had substantial bleeding
Now this could have been a burst hemorrhoid as they bleed a lot and some have been very swollen and inflamed
It honestly scared me how much blood here was so I stressed how scared I was to the Dr and they finally referred me
I got the letter for a referral for a endoscopic procedure and it's all hit me hard
I'm scared this could be serious I'm anxious about the procedures terrified of the c word
I'm 35
I have 3 kids
I'm shaking
Iflts not for a few weeks
I have a disability where I have had operations and procedures and been at risk all my life but this is the first time since being a parent.
It's hitting me hard
I tried to hide the seriousness from my husband as he struggles with depression and inddijt want to worry him but the weight of is too much and I'm so scared I told him and I can tell he is terrified and worried but is putting on a brave face I don't feel better for telling him I feel worse I can see how worried he is ...
I'm terrified right now yes I know it can be various things it can just be severe hemorrhoids and idb
My condition can cause benign tumours to grow so it can even be one of those on the colon
The risks of the procedure are lowish but it could lead to various things if things go working including a stoma bag...
I'm just so scared of the potential worsts as its not just me it all affect anymore
I feel so tearful
I had just gotten myself back a bit after starting meds after being diagnosed with adhd...
I am telling my mum on Monday as I don't want to ruin her mothers day she lives 4 hours away from us
I'm so scared....