To be angry I have epilepsy

[Iquitforevermore]

I feel so silly as I know that there are far worse conditions. I have young dcs and just can't help but feel angry I have this stupid condition (diagnosed in my 30s) Does anybody else?

I don't have epilepsy but I do have a chronic health condition. Thankfully it doesn't yet effect me much yet in the day to day but, wow, I am so jealous and angry that there are people out there that have perfect health and I will never know what that's like.

I used to see my life as two half's, before diagnosis and after. Like I had no worries before.

Realistically I know that most people will have some form of health complaint at some point but you get it. It just feels really bloody unfair.

@Whyx that's exactly how I feel. I just see people with perfect health and then feel annoyed I have this. I am incredibly selfish as I know there are far worse things on the world. I also know that you can never tell what is going on in other peoples lives. I have struggled to accept the diagnosis at this time in my life. I feel it has robbed me of precious memories with my young dcs. I wish I could make peace with it but I can't.

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How bad is your epilepsy? I had a fit at 29 when I was pregnant with my first child. Had a scan and it came back clear, but because I had a second fit a week after she was born, they had to class it as epilepsy and put me on medication that I have to take for the rest of my life now. It's a minimal amount, and (touch wood) I've never had another episode. I could come off the medication, but it would mean not being able to drive for a year and I would worry about having a seizure. I I guess the medication is like a safety blanket for me now. I don't think about it any more it's just routine...take the tablet in the morning and one at night and just carry on as usual.
Hope you're ok. Sending a hug.

I understand your feelings OP. I don't have epilepsy; I have type 1 diabetes and I'm angry that this illness affects me. I resent waking up in the morning & having to test my glucose & calculate insulin doses before I've even had a first cuppa. I'm angry that there is nothing spontaneous about eating - every carb has to be calculated and insulin injected accordingly.

Op your not alone what type of epilepsy do you have?
I've got generalised epilepsy
Non epileptic attack disorder
Nocturnal seizures & chronic migraines
I'd do anything to have a healthy life.
ive 4 young dc I'd love to be able to drive work and plan things like days out knowing I'll be feeling OK.
I often remind my self things could be worse and I'm lucky to have the life I do.
But I'd love nothing more the a bath alone without somebody in the bathroom with me just in case of a seizure.
I've also gained 28lb since starting keppra! Due to see epileptic nurse to look into different medicines 💊 and hopefully the weight will come off!