i will try to cut a v long story short. I have 19 mnth ds whom i adore. When he was born he was very ill and in an out of hosp and having tests etc, cried all the time.. never slept. DH travels abit and went away when ds was just 6 weeks old. I coped. just! When i went for post natal check i had to fill out the depression/anxiety form and my gp said i had sever anxiety and mild PND. Went on pills... got better... Came off them November just gone.
Basically i am still getting panicky when ds crys. Mainly when he goes to bed. If he wont settle well and is crying and crying i get really anxious and feel like i could throw up. I know there is nothing wrong with him. When i put him to bed i walk away on tender hooks dreding him screaming. I was like this as soon as he was born and was mainly why doc put me on pills. I dont feel i came off them too soon and i am not depressed now coz i WAS depressed and dont feel the same now.
I feel odd. My moods are all over the place like bad constant pmt. DH just has to walk in the room and it'll hack me off. I lose my temper at ds and end up shouting at him sometimes and its unnecessary and worried why i cant control my feelings. I dont know what is wrong. im going to go docs tues to ask her but wondering if anyone out there felt remotly similar??