As I’ve gotten older I’ve come to the realisation that my inability to fit in and function normally in society may actually be undiagnosed autism. Has anyone been diagnosed as an adult and how did you go about getting your diagnosis? Did you see a GP?
As a child I was nonverbal outside of close family members to the age of 6 and still painfully quiet once I did speak. I vividly remember vomiting on two occasions when everything was suddenly very loud and bright, everything had felt murky/dreamlike before this. I managed to have a few friendships at school I imagine because I was quite attractive and had a twin to help me, but I would always be told I was weird or anything I said would be followed with uncomfortable stares.
As an adult I’ve struggled to get any job (usually because of the interview) so have had to turn to self employment with minimal human interaction. I haven’t sustained any friendships for long. I have had two long term partners but it’s always been a bit of a joke between us that I’m autistic because I’m so socially inept, and can stare into space for ages without realising I haven’t said anything. I can get very upset and angry if items of mine are “ruined”, even if my partner opens a cereal box wrong and it rips it can really agrravate me. I believe I am misdiagnosed bipolar disorder because I haven’t taken medication for years and read online autism can show symptoms of bipolar. I also had anorexia as a teen and read similar.