Need a hand hold

[jmh740]

I lost my mum in October I took 2 weeks off work ( well 3 because it was half term) I'm a ta in a secondary school, then I got covid in December went back to work 3 days before we broke up for Xmas, back to work for 3 days then I got flu, I've been in bed all week went downstairs and laid on the sofa for 4 hours today. That's the most I've left my bed since last Friday,
I emailed work yesterday and said I hoped to be in Monday. I tried to get a docs appointment today but they said you need to self care for 2 weeks before the doc can see you.
Oh told me today he doesn't think I'll be back to work Monday. I kept saying I'll be fine but laid in bed now thinking I'm probably not going to be. I feel like I should go bk Monday oh says I should wait until I'm properly better or it will take me longer to recover.
I feel like people at work will think I'm taking the p, if I can't see a doc then how do I get a fit note?
Oh is rubbish with illness he's disabled and has had to really push himself to look after me and the kids this week, he's very grumpy, im almost 50 but just feel poorly and want my Mum

Try not to think about Monday, it's ages away, you could be better by then or you could be worse, so don't spend energy trying to guess for now.

If you still feel rubbish then, just stay home and don't worry what anyone thinks. Most people I know have had lots of time off since December as everyone's been ill with some virus or another. No-one will think you're taking the piss. And everyone will also know how hard it is to see a doctor for a sick note.

I'm so sorry about your mum. I lost mine too and really relate to just wanting my mum when life gets overwhelming. She was the one constant that always had my back in a way that even my lovely DH doesn't. But you've got this I promise.

I went back to work after 2 weeks when she passed away and couldn't work at all, my brain just didn't work and I was a mess. My boss sent me home for another two weeks bless her. You have done really well to push through.