I feel depressed when my baby is unwell

[Mumof2sw]

Wanting to know if anyone else out there is feeling this. I’ve suffered with PPD since my youngest was born March 2022. Every time he’s unwell it kicks my anxiety and depression off again. I feel sick, dread having to deal with the baby and sometimes feel like I shouldn’t of had another child. I cry most of the time feel like I wanna throw up. He’s been much harder than my oldest was and it drains me. I sometimes wish he would grow up a bit quicker and we can be done with the baby stage. I know this sounds selfish as he’s the one not well and I love him millions of course but I hate having this feeling when he’s bad. Hate seeing him unwell and I know it will shift but is this normal for me to feel this way. Help. Thanks

Have you been back to your GP or spoken to your HV about the way that you are feeling?

I haven’t yet. I’m suffering with a flu atm and I think that’s got a part to play in it all too. Maybe being unwell on top of the baby being unwell brings it all back? I was going to wait until I feel better before asking them about it.
im on sertreline for the ppd and have been amazing on it. But as soon as he or I am ill I got back to the way I was thinking before my meds kicked in

I can relate. I have medication but also do CBT techniques which really help.

I can relate and I don’t have depression- it’s the tiredness and then having to rally to look after another which is so hard when they are so small. Most days I feel it’s enough to look after myself and well kids. I don’t have any answers but I did want to share my feelings so you’re not alone- do you have a partner or someone you could talk to about maybe doing a bit more when you feel like this?

I think I may look into that if it hasn’t improved in the next week or so. Thanks

Thank you. My partner is really good. Always takes over when it’s getting too much. Hopefully this feeling will shift soon