Hi so, I have suffered with really bad health aniexty in the past, about 2 years ago I was really bad, I've always suffered with lymph nodes since I was a child, I can feel alot in my neck like peas and 2 or 3 are persistantly up, 2 years ago I got very bad with checking these constantly, I got checked about 6 and a half years ago, I went to the doctor to show my swollen node and he said he could feel a lot, said he wasn't worried but did a fbc, showed I was anaemic, but he referred me non urgently to the hospital but said he wasn't worried, about 2 months later I went to the hospital and they just felt my neck and wasn't concerned and let me go, the nodes have never gone down and I can always feel alot.
Recetly I have been very very tired, I'm a mum of 2,and under alot of stress, havinf a lot of back pain etc. I went to the doctor on 19th December because I have been suffering with quite poor circulation in my feet and hands which I've always had but got worse with the really cold weather last month, so I went to get checked, the doctor mentioned possibly raynaud's disease and said he would start with FBC and I saw on his computer Ana blood test I think its called to check for auto immune disorders. I don't know what happened to me after that, but I have gone into a serious aniexty attack, I've never been triggered with my health aniexty by a blood test, I was booked in today for the 5th of Jan, and for the past 2 weeks I have convinced my self I have lymphoma and something serious is going to show up on my blood test, to make it even worse I have had some sort of alergic reaction all over my neck, which is very itchy, it's been there for almost 2 weeks ( I think its from putting retinol on my neck as it started after that) and it's made more lymph nodes swell. After reading up all the symptoms I have convinced myself and getting pictures in my mind after my blood test today they are going to call me back in urgently with bad news I've got cancer, it's got so bad I am getting heart palpations, I'm getting dizzy from it and my chest hurts as I've been like this for 2 weeks worrying and crying and googling but ofcourse in my mind all this is due to the fact I think I'm about to be diagnosed with cancer . I just feel so tired and the worse it gets the more I convince myself.
I know all my symptoms could be caused by something else less serious but I'm just terrified. Does anyone have any tips for coping with health aniexty or any advice in general.