Is this burn out?

[Changingplace]

I feel like I can’t move, like I’m just heavy and can’t do anything, I feel completely overwhelmed by what should be totally normal things I have to do.

I keep waking up at 3am with my heart racing, and most of the time I’m awake then and during the day I’m getting heart palpitations and feel constantly on edge.

Yesterday morning I tried to get up and burst into tears when DH asked if I was ok.

I feel like I’m getting no pleasure from anything. I forced myself to go to a friend’s birthday at the weekend but I just as easily could’ve sat at home and done nothing at all, it’s like I just have no motivation or connection to anything.

I took yesterday off sick and technically I can work from home today, I’ve got a project that’s launching next week but I can’t summon any enthusiasm for what needs doing for that or anything else.

I keep reading about burnout, is that what this is? Would the GP care? What would they even prescribe? I just want to be the old me :(

It may be. Or it could be proper clinical depression. What you describe sounds exactly like how I felt when I had clinical depression. You definitely need to discuss your symptoms with a sympathetic GP. It's also worth googling self-referral to free online NHS CBT. It takes about 3-6 months to get seen but may as well start the ball rolling now.

Would you consider antidepressants? I think for the symptoms you have, they might help you get back on track enough to start creating a better state of self-care.

Not sure. You definitely don't sound well though so please make a GP appointment. Hope you feel better soon.

@Changingplace how are you feeling now? I hope the Christmas break allowed you to relax and gain some energy back.
Feel free to PM me; I'd be glad to provide some support FOC. Best wishes for a speedy recovery.

Are you an age where this could be perimenopause?