I want to start this post by saying that I have seen my GP and she has referred me for an abdominal and transvaginal scan, she said the letter should come through in a couple of weeks. Till then I just need a space to release my worries. I have family but can’t talk to them because they think I’m always over catastrophising.
I’m 31 and have 2 young DC. I have been a worrier since I was a child and it’s always been about different things but since the birth of DC2 last year, I’ve started to experience periodic episodes of immense worry about health issues.
The problem is I can feel fine and all of a sudden start experiencing some symptoms and niggles which definitely are very real and then it just makes me think that’s it’s not health anxiety at all but an actual health problem.
Recently in the last 6 months or so I’ve experienced symptoms and been checked out for heart and chest issues, headaches and tingling in joints, floaters in eyes, skin cancers, etc. I had a blood test a few months ago which showed ESR level at 24 and low ferritin at 12. Been prescribed ferrous fumarate and have taken this previously during pregnancies without any side effects.
Now it’s the turn of my bowels and stomach. As with all the other occasions I have been feeling fine and getting on with life and from nowhere start feeling unwell. TMI warning:
- Last month it started off with feeling flutters and movements like when you’re 4/5 months pregnant. Been having regular periods and using condoms but took a hpt anyway and it was negative.
- 2 days before last period was due, I had spotting which lasted the full 2 days and I never have spotting.
- After period finished I have had constant bloating. Upper abdomen is swollen and tight. Lower abdomen feels heavy with occasional sharp stabbing pains.
- Bowel movements were normal (1x a day) until the last few days where I have been alternating between diarrhoea and constipation and this is what’s really scaring me tbh.
- So for the last 2 days I have had diarrhoea first thing in the morning and I don’t know if it’s because I’m nervous because as soon as I get up I start thinking about it all and start Googling stories about bowel cancer and ovarian cancer and that’s it, I feel sick to the pit of my stomach, get all clammy and sweaty and have to rush to the bathroom
- The days when I was constipated I was still able to pass stools but had to strain.
- Gurgling noises coming from stomach
- Excessive burping (but silent burps iykwim)
- Constant feeling of pressure in my lower abdomen and towards my bum, and I have to keep double checking whether I need to go the bathroom or not
I can’t stop googling, reading stories about people with no symptoms or no bleeding when passing stools who still ended up with cancer. This time it’s really affecting me because I constantly feel discomfort and occasional pain when I get the stabbing sensations.
My mum has had cysts on her ovaries which sort of then went away on their own, my dad has a stomach ulcer and my grandmother passed away from bowel related issues which terrifies me when I think about it all.
Every day I wake up nervous thinking what’s going to happen today? I don’t have any food allergies that I know of and it doesn’t matter what I seem to have eaten in the last 2 weeks, the bloating and pressure is still there.
I just don’t know what to do myself.