am i going soft

[fostermum]

ever since my heart op 4 weeks ago i can no longer watch casaulty,holby,anything medical and after years of regular blood tests and not a flinch i burst into tears when i had one yesterday like a big wuss,i was so embarrassed

Aw, that's okay, you had a big thing happen to you and need some time and space to get your head around it. Your reaction sounds totally expected IMO. ((hugs))

P.S. I passed out when I tried contact lenses in the opticians, so I am the biggest wuss of all!

Fostermum, don't worry about it love. After my surgery last year (orthopaedic mine) I would burst into tears at the drop of a hat, particularly anytime I talked about ds.
I think my consultant thought I was mentally defective, cos it took 4 months before I could see him without crying (esp embarassing cos he's GORGEOUS, easily worth a part in ER).

Sweetheart you just need extra tlc from all those around you. And let the tears come, it helps the stress to stop from building up.

i cant watch beaches anymore, used to be able to.

i almost passed out at a blood test once. even dh who has regular blood tests occasionally has faint moments about them.

oh beaches! i havent seen that for years - i used to love that movie - but i couldnt watch it now because the wind beneath my wings starts me off!

oh god me too wind beneath my wings and i cry at goodnight mr tom and even been known to cry at E.T

funny how things chnage and they affect you more (dh has the same condition as Hilary in beaches)

Weirdly, fostermum, I had a period of 5 years pre-dd of being in and out of hospital and having a lot of surgery and it made me want to watch hospital dramas which I'd never been interested in before!!

Since dd I'm really emotional about lots of other things though. I think being afraid of losing your life makes you feel things intensely. Every single time I take dd (now 2) to a little toddler group we've been going to since she was 1 and they do the song session at the end I fill up with tears to the point where it's painful to not let them spill over and I'm sure people notice. I don't know what it is about little children 'singing', their faces and attempts to do the hand gestures, it just gets to be big time.