My GP wants me to book a 24 hour blood pressure monitor and I have an appointment booked for Monday for the machine.
I have my own blood pressure monitor at home but I didn't use it in about a year. In anticipation for my appointment and for the 24 hour monitor, I took it out from the cupboard, changed the batteries and took some readings last night and again this.
I'm horrified with the readings I'm getting. I'm getting readings from anything from 130 to 156 over anything from 85 to 94.
I'm absolutely horrified with this readings. When I was taking regular readings before I was going through a health phase trying to lose weight. I was successful at losing 3 stone and I had good readings. Then winter 2020 set in and the winters lockdown. I tried to remain upbeat and positive and but I found things hard. I my work was demanding and I started drinking at home. I enjoyed making cocktails and I used to have about 2/3 drinks about 4/5 times a week. I know alcohol can increase blood pressure. I'm not always drinking.
Then I have to deal with a lot of shittiness in my life. Other peoples moods that they like to dump on me -
- I have a personality disordered sibling: she is the worst. We do t see each other any more but after all these years she's still in a horrible revenge phase and she's never going to stop until I don't have an income, family, partner, a roof overy head. She can't manage her own life and she's jealous of whatever happiness I have. I am an optimistic person and I focus on positives in a situation.
- my employer is ok but she can be hard too
- my mum is aging and I think she's going senile. She's ok some of the times then other times she's just a bit loopy. I think maybe there might be dementia setting in.
- my doct found something last summer and I am waiting on a hospital appointment to investigate the possibility of having a gut condition. So I don't know if that would contribute to high readings.
I'm afraid of being put on daily meditation for the rest of my life?
How do I eliminate stress when there's nothing more but assholes left, right and centre of me.