Mum has been ill ages, and is at present in advanced liver disease and cirrhosis. She is confused alot of the time and desperately wants to come home. Dad has been devastated that she has had some cerebral damage and she isn't the wonderful mum that was my best mate etc.
They have been together 45 years (since age 15) and recently he had been talking of suicide and pacts between them. I am understandably out of my head with worry and yet my logical side says I must carry on for ds 8 and dd 1. I love my parents so much and can't believe it has come to this. 3 yrs ago they were just like you and me and now they are unrecognisable.
I've just got back from the ward my dad is in and he has what seems to be the same.
They have always been drinkers - usually at home - and things did escalate when we lost my db aged 22 some years ago. I feel lost, numb and destroyed. Anyone else had alcohol causing nightmares??? effing ell. Don't know what to think.