That’s how it’s feels right now.
Despite endless doctor appointments, lots of gastroenterologist visits, a colonoscopy, gastroscope, blood tests, scans etc. Fastidiously following the low fodmap diet, eating low and no gluten/wheat, no dairy for years, no fat/greasy foods, no alcohol, coffee etc (food has become very limited for me these days, there is no joy in eating), taking/experimenting with various IBS meds, listening to gut directed hypnotherapy and exercising, I never managed to control my symptoms for more than a day or two.
I have IBS mixed, so I can go days/weeks with more constipated symptoms to suddenly flipping to diarrhoea and loose stools (last Saturday just out of the blue I have explosive diarrhoea now tummy very unsettled).
My digestive system is never settled, it is always gurgling/growling, I have nausea (often mid cycle for some reason), acid, bloating and gas especially in the evening. Mornings are a nightmare.
And despite all of these doctor/hospital appointments and tests I worry continuously that it’s something serious especially as I am nearly 49 and worry the older I get.
I am seriously becoming almost agoraphobic over it now and only go out to do my very part time job (which I want to give up because of my unpredictable symptoms) and food shopping (for my family as food has no appeal for me right now!). I don’t want to go anywhere and my social life has shrunk to nothing.
Has anyone else been in this position? What have you done/did to get relief help you live a ‘normal’ life.
From where I am right now, it’s a miserable existence.