I overcame my phobia - and finally had a smear test!

[constancereader]

I am so pleased with myself - I actually did it!

I developed a MASSIVE phobia of internal examinations about two years ago. It was so bad that I went through labour without knowing how dilated I was. I thought I would never overcome it, I simply could not control my physical reaction. I would even cry when thinking about it.

So my lovely health visitor referred me to a doctor specialising in helping women like me and only three sessions later I managed a proper smear test. It isn't that bad really, is it??!!! I am so grateful for the excellent care I recieved.

And thanks to all those who have encouraged me too. Kewcumber, if you are out there you might like to know that during a difficult moment I thought that if I stuck with it you would be proud of me again!

well done to you
You shoud be very proud of yourself
big hugs

oh well done you !! that's brilliant - am psyching myself up to book mine for next week !

Thanks guys, I DO feel rather fabulous actually (not a reaction normally associated with smear tests..)

tell me, how did you deal with it - any special tips ? I always tell myself to breathe out slowly and that it'll soon be over !

Well done constance

Perhaps you can join Lulumama's campaign and help others to get their's done now?

Well, first of all the doctor gave me a speculum to take home and practise with. That was very helpful, apart from when I left it in the bathroom when I had visitors . The next appointment she got me on the bed thing and let me go at my own pace. She stood by the door and didn't even come near me until I was ready. Basically she left me in control of the whole process, and talked me through the process slowly. Today she helped me to physically relax the right parts of my back and chest etc to ensure it was pain free.

I would explain your worries and book a double appointment so that you are not under a time pressure. Best of luck!

I will certainly join the campaign - honestly if I can manage it with the right help then ANYONE could. I was really really phobic.

did you do the speculum bit yourself then, at your appointment ? lol at you leaving it in the bathroom for visitors to see !

Yes, I did it myself. It helped a lot.

I think my friends must think I have a doctor fetish or something...

i have never had a smear for exactly the same reason (although i've never been called for one yet) i am terrified, i had a really horrible experience of an internal exam just after my first delivery - which was also horrific forceps, styrrups, episiotomy etc. and the gp that did that exam has scared me off for life. there is just no way i can bring myself to have a smear

Constance, the thread is here if you would like to help.

beautifulsnowydays, please don't give up. I was hysterical and screaming whenever someone tried to give me an internal, for two years. Like you I had some VERY bad experiences. If you go to your GP and explain they could refer you on to someone who could help.

My smear today was pain free. Good luck.