Throughout my childhood I suffered with epilepsy, but haven't had a seizure since I was 11. I was taken off medication completely when I was 13. I am now 19. Just recently, in the last few months, my symptoms have started coming back. I've been having twitching in my hands, and my workmates have said that I seem to be staring into space all the time, not looking like I have any awareness of what's going on around me. My bosses have said they have also noticed this and that they need to see an improvement, but they don't know that there is a reason behind it. I think they just think I can't be bothered. I'm an apprentice at a pre-school so as you can imagine, you always need to be aware of what's happening around you. A few weeks ago (luckily at the time I was home alone and not at work, which would have been the worst case scenario) I looked down and realised I had wet myself and that was when I realised just how bad things are. This morning I went to pour my 4 year old brother a bowl of cereal and within seconds I forgot I was even doing it. Shreddies went everywhere. My best friend and workmate doesn't actually work the same days as me so we only work together when one of us is covering and she said even she has noticed it, and she says it's hard work for her and the others. She knows about what's been happening and is telling me to go to the doctors and is offering to go with me, and says that there's no need for me to be sorry for anything as I can't help it. I just don't want everyone else to think I'm just lazy and that I can't be bothered. I'm making my workmates' jobs harder and something needs to change about it before I lose my job. Any advice?