My life is officially shit! I have chronic pain from lots on things, including back problems, endometriosis, and as the result of two simple accidents which should have healed with no drama, but didn't.
Sprained my ankle 15 years ago, three surgeries, 1st one seemed to fix small cartilage tear but I still had pain. Second surgery did more bad than good, leaving fragments of metal in my Achilles' tendon from a failed screw - ouch! Third surgery with new surgeon sorted this and fixed detached ligaments from a new sprain 9 months after 2nd surgery. But I was left with post traumatic arthritis, and now all that can be done is a fusion or ankle replacement (unless science manages to grow viable cartilage soon). Can't walk far - can manage around the house and little errands but couldn't do a half hour walk with a hill or even half a day sightseeing.
Meanwhile on the other side I have the Hip Injury. Five years ago in the summer I caught the toe of my sandal on a loose edge in an unfinished recycling area and fell forwards with my toe trapped, wrenching the whole of my leg. I felt the tearing at the top where my leg meets my bum. Had to sit down on the floor to recover, absolute agony for a few mins then managed to limp home. Saw physio the next day who was fairly horrified and said to rest and ice it for 6 weeks. It didn't heal. An MRI discovered tearing of the insertional tendon in my leg/bum and on the outside of my hip. Have done the 'medical tourism' as they call it here, where they pass you round different specialists but no one can help. I can't sit down!!! It's just impossible and with my other problems too,even more impossible! I have tried cortisone and PRP injections, neither worked. I am on lots of drugs including opiates and infusions of lidocaine and ketamine at the pain clinic.
And now I have to see what I think is called an advising doctor (I"m not sure what to call it, not in uk) because I cannot work and can't pay my mortgage. It was the banks idea that I claim as DH wasn't working either earlier this year due to Covid. We pay enough in mortgage insurance so they bloody should pay it but it's so stressful! I hate that I have to try to justify myself like this.
I already have mental health problems because of the pain, and I can't concentrate long enough to read a paragraph. I like my work, am sad I can't do it, feel I'm losing that part of my identity. My insurance will only take into account accidents, so my back pain, endometriosis and MH issues don't count. Thinking about it is consuming my whole day! Oh, and DH wants to go to visit family in Aus next year. I can barely make it to the nearest town!
Don't really expect a solution from you guys but sympathy and kind words from anyone who's been through anything similar gratefully received.