Hi all, I've posted a few times and you're all so lovely. I'm so down at the moment I dont know what to do with myself. I'm dealing with the breakdown of my relationship early July, Work is stressful as well as there is lots of pressure at the moment, I'm a senior manager and due to everything going on and if things don't improve the business will likely close. I'm waiting for an urgent appointment for an abnormality the doctor has seen on my cervix after going because i have constant pelvic pain, bleeding etc. The last few days I've been feeling giddy when lying down and getting up and am praying its not vertigo which I had about 7 years ago. I just feel so unwell physically and emotionally and alone. I have lots of friends but it's just not the same, I worked myself into a ridiculous state the other evening. I'm trying to keep it together on the outside, I have two children 19 and 23 and a grandson and dont want them to worry.