so scared about cervical cancer....my brave face has slipped tonight

[PellMell]

I hope I haven't got it
I am expecting an urgent appointment with a gynaecologist.
The wait is awful. I cant face the waiting. I just feel like I know I have a serious problem.
The nurse who did my smear test has asked me to leave my contact number because I am going on holiday next saturday(dh and I have not been able to have proper holidays ever because we have a disabled teenage daughter)
The bleeding is awful and the g.p won't prescribe anything as the gynae needs to see me without the interference of more drugs.
I'm so worried.
I feel like it is inevitable
I am always so positive . I want to believe these symptoms are not cervical cancer.

how long will you have to wait?? the waiting must be awful. poor you. hope someone with some experience is along soon to help you....

i too went hrough a period when i thought i had a tumour in my womb,my doc said thats what he thought i was,i had an apt at the hospital 7 days later where they did a scan and i was found to have a massive fibroid which was causing all my problems,but the seven days between ,i think all i did was sob,i was convinced i was going to die etc.There may be many reasons why you are having problems,its not always the thing that you fear.I hope its this way for you.

i can feel your panic, how long do you have to wait?

I saw the g.p again this morning and at a guess he said should receive an appointment next week
My cervix is continuosly bleeding and heavily now. My back is agony and I want them to see me now.
We have a little girl of two years old too.It took us a long time to have her.
There are 16 years between my beautiful girls.

hey pellmell...i have been through similar experience..firstly the nurse always asks for a contact number..that could be either to confirm an appointment has been made to see the gyne or just to ring and let you know everything is fine..my periods of bleeding have been horendous..i feel like im drained half the time..and constantly wearing a nappy...when i got refered..they tryed different things..ie..the pill for 3 months see if that worked..instead of having a break..then a break for one month..then another three months...this worked for me..and touch wood will continue working...you know i worried myself sick about the results and that can make matters worse with the bleeding to..and i had family history with cervical cancer so was nightmare at the time...i really hope and im sure the will come back ok and its just going to be a case of controlling your bleeding..finding the right course is a lengthy process..but you will be in the right hands anyway hun..i hope some of this helped and dont worry to much and enjoy your holiday..xxx

thankyou mercedes
I am wondering today about seeing If I can go private. My dh does have some sort of medical thingy through his work and I believe it includes his spouse.Seem to remember us looking at it during an episode of illness during my pregnancy but it didn't cover it.

Hi Pellmell, yu must be climbing the walls with frustration, you have my sympathies.
I had a period of nearly continuous bleeding about 10 years ago, it went on for about 6 or 7 months off and on and a few months before it ended my mum had had a full hysterectomey (sp?) as she had had the same thing off and on all her life. They still aren't sure what caused it but I have smears every year if I can and they are always clear.
I have been told I just have overactive ovaries or something but of course as son as I get to a specialist it has stopped.

I just wanted to let you know that it might not be that sinister, and the GP always used to take my number when referring me, more of a worst case scenario thing rather than anything else.

thankyou. You summed it up because I am really climbing the walls.
The g.p did find where the blood was coming from and it is definately coming from my cervix ...he said a cervical ectropian (like erosion)but then made me worry by fixing an appointment for a smear straight away.
Since then the bleeding has been like a medium to heavy period. It had been a couple of months of light bleeding.
The nurse explained that it was urgent and wrote "symptoms" on the test. She then said I should find out within a couple of weeks and that the Gynae appointment my g.p had referred me to would be quick as I would need laser treatment.
I know I am waffling away.
Should go and take my mind of all this.

POSITIVE THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, waffle away, it's your fingers that will ache!

I have had cervical erosions bleed through this pregnancy , which they did in my last one too, I was just told that when your body homrone levels change it gets more likely for an erosion to bleed.
I also found that after an exam by GP I use to bleed really badly for a couple of weeks and then it would tail off back into 'late period' type bleeding, a couple fo pads a day sort of thing.

Have to go into work now but will be thinking of you, just keep telling yourself that the GP will be doing everything by the book, it doesn't necessarily mean there is anything to worry about, just that he is efficient!

you have made me feel better
Thats a reality check
thankyou
I am just having a lovely time watching my baby grow up and knowing my older daughter is in really good hands in a place that offers specialist care for her condition.
It's the first time in my life that life has been wonderful.

My mum had this and she had polyps.

hey pellmell..how are you feeling today..??..just read your latest message and sounds to me,when you go for your appointment he may do a cone biopsy which they did to me..i was only in for a couple of hours while this was done...a cone biopsy is basicly like it sounds a piece of cervix is taken in the shape of a cone..very small..then they cauterised the cervix..put me on the pill as i said in my message at bottom..but every one is different...the thing that kept me going through it all..was seeing my children everyday..you keep smiling sweetheart and will keep coming on to see how you get on..xxxx

Hey Pellmell, how you feeling? Thinking of you.

I think (in my professional opinion as a busybody!) that you should go and do something really silly and messy with your toddler today to take your mind off it....why not make some playdough

(being facetious as am trying to help)

Hi
Thankyou for your lovely messages
I discovered yesterday morning that my dh has a private medical insurance that I am named on.
I am now seeing a consultant on monday at the chiltern clinic.
So I am keeeping everything crossed until then.

Today I have been off for some pampering.
Also a friend and I went for a meal at a Loch Fyne restaurant in woburn. It was gorgeous and I feel rather too full now.

Playdough.......thanks that was a lovely suggestion but my fridge is already home to two batches of the bloody stuff

Thanks for your support it means more than I can say.
We are not sharing our worries with any rl friends so it is lovely to be able to be selfish and ask people to "listen" on here.

That's great news about being able to see a consultant, and you sound a lot more positive today, it must be a weight off without the uncertainty.

Glad you had a good day

Had a good appointment today. have now booked an appointment for day surgery in three weeks time. The consultant asked me to have it done this coming saturday. I said "I knew this would happen" regarding the fact that dh and I were having our first proper holiday now that dd1 is living in residential care.We sail on saturday for two weeks
The consultant said not to cancel it as straight after would be fine. He believes I have nothing to be scared about and that it is not cancer but obviously needs fully investigating so.......

Thanks for everyones support. I was(and still am but only slightly) worried sick.You really helped me x