Breast lump

[lm753]

Hi everyone. This is my first post. I'm 44 years old and a single parent to 3. My son has just turned 22, I have a 20 year old daughter and a 14 year old daughter. Last Monday evening, the 13th January, the day before my sons birthday, I found a lump in my right breast. I don't check my breasts as often as I should but it scared the life out of me. My blood ran could and I had a panic attack. After a sleepless night I rang my GP surgery the next day and managed to get to see a locum GP at 10.30 that morning. She did an examination then gave me an two week urgent referral to the breast clinic. I received the appointment on Thursday for the 27th, a week tomorrow but I'm in a really dark place. I've convinced myself it's cancer. I keep feeling the lump in the vain hope it's disappeared, then this morning I decided to check myself naked in front of the mirror and have found large dimples in the underboob. I can't eat, sleep or concentrate on anything. I have a great supportive friend network who all message me daily and offer to come to the appointment next week. I feel like I'm facing a death sentence, I'm so scared x

Failing that, wine!

That's exactly how mine feels and it's the immobility that is freaking me out too. As for the wine, I'm currently nursing leftover red wine from Christmas. Xx

I want to say thank you to you lovely ladies who calmed me down I slept so well last night, the first time in a week. ❤️

Once I find one I figure that my responsibility to check my breasts is officially over for a while and this become’s somebody else’s responsibility for a few weeks. I find that helps.

Really good advice, I have sort of detached myself from the lumo. It's the responsibility of the doctors now. The wait to be seen at the breast clinic is awful, every hour feels like a day. Trying to keep busy x

I was the same. Luckily first time I went private as DH had it with work so was seen the same day. Second time it was exactly 2 weeks and it was sooo much worse not least because I was older so convinced myself it was cancer. Hang in there!

I had a two week referral a few years ago & the wait is definitely the worst part as our minds go into overdrive. I'm a Christian & found help there. Every lady I know personally who has had breast cancer has survived, from young to old. I currently look after a lady who is 92 and she had cancer 30 years ago & is as fit as a fiddle. I hope all will be well with you.

Breast clinic tomorrow. Trying not to think about it. Currently running myself a lavender bath. I wouldn't inflict a 2 weeks wait on my worst enemy. 😢 x

The waiting is just awful, I made myself ill with the worry, at least you'll have a good idea tomorrow of what you are dealing with, good luck.

Hang in there. Hope it’s a morning appointment?

My appointment is at 10.30. My friend is coming with me and we are going for coffee first. Had another feel this evening and i don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me but it feels like there are smaller lumps around it. Definitely won't sleep tonight, got myself too wound up and now feel sick 😢

Good I’m glad you can get it done in the morning. Stop feeling now. Our minds do play tricks. This time tomorrow I hope you are giddy and high on life.

I sincerely hope so. Can't cope anymore with feeling this petrified. Been having very vivid dreams.

Wishing you all the best for tomorrow,

Wishing you sleep and a good outcome x

Just wanted to add my own good luck wishes to you.

I went to the breast clinic last week with a small lump in my right breast and had an ultrasound + biopsy.

The doctor had been fairly sure that we would be able to close everything down with a letter with the results back to me. I got a letter on Saturday asked me back in for an appointment now and I am utterly terrified.

I had managed to keep a bit of a lid on my anxiety before then, but I think I may crack before next Tuesday comes around when the appointment is.

Big hugs and good luck - hope you get good news this morning.

Hope you’re ok IM753.

Hi all. It's not good news unfortunately. I have cancer. Spent 5 hours at the breast clinic. The consultant couldn't find the lump I reported but she found another lump underneath, where I had the dimples. Had a mammogram. Went back to the waiting room and was called in for another set of mammograms. After another agonising wait I got called in for a scan. After scanning my breast for 20 minutes the Dr told me there were two lumps and several smaller lumps but the good news is it hasn't spread to my lymph nodes. They took three biopsies from each of the larger lumps. I asked the Drs opinion and she said she thought it was cancer. Had markers put into the lumps and more mammograms. Eventually got to see the consultant who confirmed that although we have to wait for the biopsies, that she thought it was cancer. I've gone through all the emotions today. Anger. Sadness. Guilt and now I'm feeling a bit more positive. Thank you everyone for trying to calm me the last week! You've been a great support xx

@CardiganBlobby the wait is so traumatic. I'm keeping everything crossed for you. Please don't let my bad news scare you. Statistically I slipped through the net. ❤️❤️ xxx

Oh I’m so sorry. I hope you find some help and support on the other thread linked to upthread. Good news that it hasn’t spread if it definitely is cancer. Wishing you all the best.

Really sorry to hear your update, OP. What a shock for you. Wishing you the very best for your treatment

When you are ready, you may well find the ongoing Cancer Support threads on this board helpful for both practical and emotional support and solidarity.

I had a lump how you described when I was 18 it was a fibroadenoma, but since then I found out I was BRCA positive so had a bilateral preventative mastectomy at 28. I've spend many thousands of hours in our local breast unit and I can promise you one thing, whatever happens you'll be really well looked after.

So sorry it wasn't good news @lm753

Really sorry to see your update OP. Wishing you all the best with your treatment.

I'm so sorry to hear your news. It sounds like you are prepared in your head for what is to come a little more which is positive.

Good luck and big hugs.