Morning all. I've just slept for ten hours, which feels marvellous. I had a business trip on Thursday which involved six hours of driving, and a 5.30am start, so I spent all of yesterday feeling like I'd been run over.
@Hippiechick162 - good to hear things are moving, at least. It's all very daunting having to leave your family at home without you; hope you are getting plenty of support.
@yoikes - I'm totally with you on "telling the children". I kept it to myself throughout all the uncertainty and diagnosis, because I really wanted to present them with a positive story and a clear plan of what was going to happen. Mine are a little older (20, 18 and 16) so it was harder to justify, but they understood. I didn't want them to deal with a load of "what ifs" and worse case scenarios, particularly because it coincided with a whole heap of uncertainty and change in their own lives (new job, starting uni, starting college).
@Nonotmenori - hope your appointment went well, and you are feeling a bit more comfortable. And sorry your BF has revealed his true colours just when you need the most support.
@DaisyBD - yay, halfway! Hope you don't get too many more side effects, and the rest of the sessions pass quickly. I found taking Normacol really held the dire rear at bay, but the tiredness is unavoidable.
As for me, last session (2nd brachytherapy) took place on Tuesday, after a last-minute delay. It's done! It was strangely anti-climatic, walking out for the last time. I sat in my car for ten minutes and had a long think. I wouldn't go so far as to say the last five months have been "good", but they have had quite a profound effect on me. With all my focus on cancer treatment the smaller irritations in life seemed insignificant; I became very "zen", I laughed a lot more, and was kinder and more relaxed with those around me. And I really did see how much those around me (family, friends and children) cared about me. I'd quite like to continue being that person, and am making a conscious effort to do so. Of course, MAJOR caveat here - I had an early-stage, easily operable cancer (endometrial, grade 1, stage 1B), and tolerated the op and treatment really well - I'm sure it would have been a different story had I been battling with some of the side effects and daily discomfort many of you have experienced. Or facing an uncertain future. But cancer has been a weirdly positive experience for me.
Apologies for the waffle....now I'm going to give myself a shake and run a bath. Love to you all. You've given me so much kindness and support.