Sweetheat, I have just caught up with your news on MN and I realise that at the moment things must seem blacker than you have ever thought possible. I would rather send this to you by email, but I'm on MILs steam generated PC atm and I can't access my email, so I hope that you can get to read this, as I don't want to wait until next week when I am home.
I wish that I could make it all right for you, I wish that I could do the same for me. But one thing I can promise you in that you will cope. You will. Because we don't have the option not to cope.
And while I would not insult you by saying that things will all be OK, they are seldom quite as bad as they seem. Life can and does go on. Mr MB was given 3-6 months just before christmas and he is still with me, and enjoying life. Small miracles happen for us every day, and they will for you too.
I just wish that you could have the big miracle.
capture each moment. None of us is granted eternity. We should all live for the momnent. I just wish that I hadn't taken dh getting ill to ake me realise that.
Get linked up with the macmillan nurses asap, they are wonderful. And for what is is worth you have a special place in my heart tonight.
hx