I can't do this anymore

[nrpmum]

I do know there are so many people worse off than me, but today I just can't ...

Until two years ago I was healthy, relatively happy, plodding along.

Then I got made redundant. Had to move. Exh took residence of our DD in the most backhanded way whilst I had to move 180 miles away for work. The stress caused me meningitis. Then after months of exhaustion I was diagnosed hypothyroid.

My exh won't allow me, or anyone in my family, to see or speak to our DD.
I have tried so hard to start running again (my stress relief) but kept injuring myself. Now I have a frozen shoulder and have been told no running for 18 months. On seriously strong pain relief so I can sleep.

One of my dogs is having intensive training with me because she got attacked and takes it out on my other dog when near other dogs.

My house isn't as clean as I'd like it to be because I can't do it, and my husband is working at least 70 hours a week.

On top of that there is a possibility of redundancy from my new job next year and I won't be entitled to a penny.

I know a decent night's sleep will make me feel so much better, but right now I just want to cry, or go somewhere to breath.

I'm sorry. A really self indulgent post, but I feel so down tonight.

oh lovely. You have had nightmare after nightmare piled on top of one another. It's absolutely no wonder you feel so sad, you've been through some of the worst things a human can face.

I can only wish for you that a bit more time brings some relief and resolution. And life gets easier and less painful for you.

For now, just keep holding on... there is always light at the end of the blackest of tunnels. And have a huge hug x

Didn't want to leave you on your own- it all sounds horrible and is understandably overwhelming. I had a frozen shoulder earlier in the year and I couldn't sleep either. Eventually went to a and e and got a variety of pain relief as I was miserable. You need to get your pain sorted. I also found sleeping with a large pillow supporting my arm stopped me being so sore. When lying on my side that is. You'll need room so maybe a few nights in bed alone? I hope things resolve soon. I've had tough periods too and when you're in them they feel like they're never going to end xx

Life is just not fair sometimes. Hugs xxx

Thank you.

I feel a fraud because I do have so much to be grateful for. I think lack of sleep and pain are taking their toll.