I have a problem with food, I think I have an eating disorder.

[NeedHelpDesperatly]

I lost 2 stone after having my last child, but it was done through lots of exercise, dieting and ocasionally vomiting.

Just as I was getting happy with myself I put half a stone back on, because for the last few months ive just been eating everything in site,

gorging (without vomiting) on chocolate, sweets, chips ect

ill eat 5 choc bars

now ive just weighed myself and i feel so ashamed for putting it back on and feel fat FAT FAT

ive just made myself vomit.

Im fed up and feel stupid

I'll be watching this, I feel exactly the same - lost about 4 stone and have regained more than half of it

DON'T do the throwing up thing again though, it doesn't work and it's ruinous to your mental and physical health in so many ways.

IVE ONLY PUT ABOUT 1/2 STONE BACK ON, NOT ALL OF IT BUT I FEEL HIDEOUS

Sorry capslock was on!

Are you prone to feeling hideous though? Or is it really the 1/2 stone that's done it? If the latter, well, 1/2 a stone isn't difficult to lose, you could easily do it in a few weeks (without vomiting!) if you put your mind to it. But if it's the former, maybe there are deeper issues than body image, which are manifesting themselves through yuor relationship with food? This is certainly true in my case, I know it is, but I haven't managed to do anything about it

no think about it

you definitely have an eating disorder

talking calmly about 'occasional vomiting' is not normal .. making yourself vomit to lose weight is NOT normal

you need to take action

Talk to your GP, contact the eating disorder association

well done you for partially owning up to it ... well done .. now completely own up to it and get REAL HELP

here

can i ask what the gp will do though?

im only like this because of the baby weight, im sure that if i get to my target weight i will be ok.

direct to the help and support area .. helplines and message boards

you need to do something about this

you are now backing away from your admission .. it is not about the baby weight .. you have an unhealthy obsession with weight and an unhealthy attitude towards it

you are a mother

you do not want to raise your children in the shadow of your issues with food

please seek help

look at the name you have chosen and don't back away because you're embarrassed or ashamed .. your name choice is spot on

please don't ignore this nor convince yourself its normal

please don't

I dont feel like I need help with the vomiting though, I feel I need help loosing weight,

this is just me being honest.

I know its not normal or right, but to me, in my head at this point in time I dont feel its a huge issue as such. Its more an issue of getting rid of the extra fat.

Will the GP give me diet pills? or antidepreeents? or councilling or something?

please listen to twigg. she may be in her Harry Potter frock, as am i, but she is talking sense. I have both battled and gone along with anorexia and bulimia since i was a child. (i am 25 now)

The very fact that you asked for helpmeans that you know you need it really. There are ways of losing weight that don't include vomiting or extreme excericise. Both of which could actually make you weigh more that you currently do belive it or not!

Please follow the links that hedtwigg has posted and get some help before its too late.

I disagree it IS a huge issue

and if you don't actively get some help you may well spiral out of control

or maybe you won't .. maybe you'll go through your life bringing up your children in an environment with an unhealthy focus on weight, food and diet

your choice

but don't ask for help for something serious like this then wimp out because you don't like facing the truth .. it is an illness and needs treating

I know
I guess im thinking those links are for thin people (iknow that sounds stupid) but i feel like im too fat to be bullimic - cause theyre all skinny,

and worryinly the thoughof getting like that is appealing

I dont know my heads so messed up, i want to just be happy when i put clothes on

hi needhelpdesperately. Ive been where you are and beyond. please dont rely on being ok once you get to your ideal weight because once the cycle has started it is hard to break. i know from experience and have been like this for many years now and have tried to seek help once but my doc was rubbish and told me to just eat healthy!

but i know there are good docs out there and when i am mentally and emotionally ready i will try for help again but at the moment im just not in the right place yet.

Its a rubbish way to live and you need to get help when you really feel you want it before you get stuck in a cycle like i am. some days i think i really want help now but then fear of putting weight back on terrifies me and i change my mind again. im just not strong enough at the moment to take the next step.

You need to sort it out as soon as you can if thats what you really want. because it does sound like you need it xx

I am about 2 stone overweight atm and have battled with bulimia for the last decade on and off... it doesn't just affect skinny people

Thanks for sharing that juicychops.

I just seem to yo-yo, not just with the food but my feelings towards myself, sometimes ill feel curvy and good, sometimes i feel just disgusting

Im 11stone 3 at the moment and want to be 10stone

needhelp, everyone has their ideal weight and thats not aways what other people think is right. What i am saying is that there are ways of losing weight that won't ruin your health.

binge eating with or without vomiting is NOT normal and if you are stuck in a cycle where you just can't stop doing it then you need help.

No Gp in their right mind will issue slimming pills to someone with an ED. There are ADs that can surpress the feelings of anorexia/bulimia

It's horrible feeling fat! It doesn't matter what size you are really - the feeling is the same. I've put on quite a lot of weight since dd#2 was born. I'm lumpy and bumpy in ways that I didn't think was possible. I'm also middle aged. Sometimes it helps to keep a diary of what you ate, when and how you felt. You can then show it to the doctor who will then have a better idea of what you are doing to yourself. The doctor may prescribe anti-depressants and will probably refer you to councelling. They used to use Cognitive Behaviour Therapy for eating problems. I expect they still do. You are putting your body under terrible strain when you throw up. It's not good for you.

I don't know really anything helpful. I had eating probs for about 15 years and was finally prescribed Prozac which sorted me out. The sooner you start getting help the sooner you will get better. Please don't leave it because it eats your life and takes longer and longer to recover. The EDA has a useful website

PLEASE do not do this to yourself. I think if you look in the archives you will find lots of posts from me from the past couple of years relating to my eating disorder, and I got some really great advice. I still have bad patches, the last being a few months ago when I lost far too much weight in a short space of time through unhappiness and not really eating anything at all, but I cannot stress the damage that you will do to yourself. Ultimately, this behaviour will solve nothing, and most of the time it is a symptom of a problem rather than the main problem, iyswim, I have a very good understanding of my eating disorder, why and when it is likely to creep up on me, it is just a shame that I cant 100% control it yet, but I am well on my way. Eating Disorder Association are fab- I think htey have a new name now. BUt please do get some real help. I used to be too ashamed, as was convinced I was too fat for anyone to believe I had a real eating disorder, but that is not the case. A good GP or even helpline will listen to what you have to say and advise you on where to go from here. I wish you all the best, and please do come on here and talk if you need to x

michaelad and juicychops - spot on. Juicy, I remember you from all those years ago. Sorry to hear you're not feeling great x